Monday 2 November 2009
Monday 31 August 2009
Retrospective - Path of Practice
Final night of course, with Paul present in person.
Retrospective:
That speaks loudest which needs to be heard!
"I listen not just to what you say but to what makes you say it.
I listen to what prompts me to listen..."
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An increasing awareness of the subtleties is accompanied by an appreciation of the complexities involved in developing awareness. A particular and growing emphasis on the body/breath - an appreciation of the body as a register of 'the world according to me'.
The 'gateless gate': no-thinking (Dogen)
The accumulations of the self ('the gift of the neurotic self', Paul Haller, Benburb) (emotions, memories, observations) become the obstacle. Self is Liberation. I am Liberation (big mind).
The suchness, or isness encompasses but is not reducible to any concept.
Retrospective:
That speaks loudest which needs to be heard!
"I listen not just to what you say but to what makes you say it.
I listen to what prompts me to listen..."
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An increasing awareness of the subtleties is accompanied by an appreciation of the complexities involved in developing awareness. A particular and growing emphasis on the body/breath - an appreciation of the body as a register of 'the world according to me'.
The 'gateless gate': no-thinking (Dogen)
The accumulations of the self ('the gift of the neurotic self', Paul Haller, Benburb) (emotions, memories, observations) become the obstacle. Self is Liberation. I am Liberation (big mind).
The suchness, or isness encompasses but is not reducible to any concept.
Monday 29 June 2009
Fortnight - Review
During the first two weeks, a number of exercises were undertaken, including invitations to 'pause', 'breathe' and record a series of observations, both emotional and physical.
"Allow the experience to happen, allow the experience to speak, without judgment, vindicaton, just observing patterns. Watch out for reification.
Some events:
a. Experience of conflict, response of withdrawing, onset of pattern of passivity. Tends towards withdrawal of generosity. Out with kids, and during episode of an argument, conscious decision to interrupt patterns of withdrawal, reach out and initiate connection rather than vindicate withdrawal/challenge of conflict by repeating patterns/narrative.
b. Experience of compassion, reaching out. Immediacy of the need for presence, alongside new niece just diagnosed with CF. Touch, self-recognition, interrupting a preoccupation with daily clutter. Experience of presence, and 'coming home' to an authentic register of solidarity with parents and child.
c. Using breath to pause, consciously extend the sign into a song. Every challenge invites intentionality and transformation of the energy of moment.
Physical register: contractions around chest and knots in stomach.
Courage, intention, compassion challenge reification/settling down into familiar patterns/narratives that vindicate and help reproduce behaviours. Embodied responses including contractions, tensions and freezing during difficult encounters when decisons are also frozen.
Directions:
Let the details speak
Pause 3/6 x times and notice.
Allow the experience to happen. Allow the experience to speak more than what you have to say about it. Watch with compassion and disinterest rather than seek vindication via judgement, images or patterns.
Intention: to loosen up emotions. Notice patterns, especially obsessive patterns. But no need to bring judgment.
"Allow the experience to happen, allow the experience to speak, without judgment, vindicaton, just observing patterns. Watch out for reification.
Some events:
a. Experience of conflict, response of withdrawing, onset of pattern of passivity. Tends towards withdrawal of generosity. Out with kids, and during episode of an argument, conscious decision to interrupt patterns of withdrawal, reach out and initiate connection rather than vindicate withdrawal/challenge of conflict by repeating patterns/narrative.
b. Experience of compassion, reaching out. Immediacy of the need for presence, alongside new niece just diagnosed with CF. Touch, self-recognition, interrupting a preoccupation with daily clutter. Experience of presence, and 'coming home' to an authentic register of solidarity with parents and child.
c. Using breath to pause, consciously extend the sign into a song. Every challenge invites intentionality and transformation of the energy of moment.
Physical register: contractions around chest and knots in stomach.
Courage, intention, compassion challenge reification/settling down into familiar patterns/narratives that vindicate and help reproduce behaviours. Embodied responses including contractions, tensions and freezing during difficult encounters when decisons are also frozen.
Directions:
Let the details speak
Pause 3/6 x times and notice.
Allow the experience to happen. Allow the experience to speak more than what you have to say about it. Watch with compassion and disinterest rather than seek vindication via judgement, images or patterns.
Intention: to loosen up emotions. Notice patterns, especially obsessive patterns. But no need to bring judgment.
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